"For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Jeremiah 29:11
A nerve wrecking year of plans and prayers and finally the decision to start a family, a tiring holiday in Amsterdam just to get back home and realize that we are already expecting a little life, three months of extreme physical discomfort, another 5 months at work where even climbing the tiny stairs seemed liked a great adventure, the 9th month when I thought it to be a great achievement if I managed to fit the ever growing bump behind the steering wheel, and the thousands of web pages of information I stomached on child birth and epidurals, and scary ante-natal classes, and the final surprise of baby been breech and emergency c-section. That's what my journey has been, to sleepless nights of motherhood and to the bliss of holding my little girl.
Nine months of too many changes,of new dreams,new plans,unexpected twists and endless shopping. Many a time I felt i'm not cut out to do this, but then the feeling passed too quickly and life never gave me a second chance to turn back and ponder.Now with a one month baby in my arms as I look back, I see not the discomfort of first three months, but the hope and excitement of what to come; not the long routes I used to take to avoid climbing stairs,but the love of carrying the weight of that big bump; not the tiredness of driving around till the day before baby's birth, but the pride that I did play my part to my best. Now I realize that when the good Lord makes plans for us, He also gives the strength and means to go forward.And everyday I see my Lords presence in the caring arms of my dear husband, in the encouraging words of my mother,in joyful anticipation of my sisters and in the hopeful voice of my brother.
Oh Lord!Thy will be done, in my life as it is in heaven.